The L word..oh that dreaded L word.

So.

This is blogspot hmm.
Well.


Since I know for a fact that no one knows I have a blog spot Im going to let it out. Very open to comments, advice, criticism, what ever anyone may have to say...please..say it.

Today is going by very slow. I woke up late after a long night of drinking. At this point in my life im living with my boyfriend. I move into my own apartment next week IM SO EXCITED! very excited.

About this boyfriend of mine. Can someone please tell me why im with him??

How we met>>at one of my best friends house...was drunk..he had sex with me and I didnt remember it. He apologized..felt like he took advantage of me. And BOOM we are now together.

He really is a good guy but we dont click we're way to opinionated and sarcastic..and ..that clashes..

So you may be asking why am i still with him? I HAVE NO IDEA! i mean i like the guy..and also im insecure like hell and i like the attention. he sometimes makes me feel really good about myself. Still i dont know why i put up with the negatives..
because honeys i garuntee you the negatives out weigh the positives.
He lies sometimes. He is so rude. Sorta controlling and extrememly jealous.

and here is the worst part.

Last night..he through out the dreaded L word. I ..love..you..

WOULD SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT! haha.
oh Lord. I dont know what to do. i mean we've been together for a couple weeks..

Help!
I dont have the strength to break up with the kid. but dear God. Im so lost.

I sure do know how to pick em haha.


Love,
Cat.

Here's the day you thought would never come..

This..is my first blog.

I dont really know what inspired me to start this. The truth is that I no longer have anyone to turn to. No one to just hear me out..let me vent..let me talk talk talk like most girls do.

I sit at my job for 12 hours..and I am not one who enjoys sitting that long. I love to keep busy. So I guess im just hoping that this blog will give me something to do.

Love,
Cat.